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Buddhism-Antidepressant:

Buddhism is the best antidepressant. At least it turned out to be so - for me.
  From 19 to almost 40 years I had a severe chronic depression.
  Buddhism from her did not leave a trace.

The depression began with a banal love.
  Probably, a state similar to depression I had before, but I did not notice it.
  But then life became so unbearable that it constantly attracted the temptation of suicide.

Why was the depression so catastrophic? -
  Everything came together in one:
  - Lack of friends, loneliness,
  - Disappointment in a business that was everything to me.
  - Complete collapse on the love "front."

The book on Zen Buddhism caught on time. He taught:
  Accept that you are already dead. - You no longer need to achieve anything, nothing to strive for, nothing to desire.
  Passions, desires are the cause of suffering.
  Non-attachment to anything in this life relieves gravity, frustration and despair.

Indeed, it helped. And not only helped, but relieved the depression by 100%
  True, it was not easy to implement the philosopher-therapy in feelings, it took many years, and made us reconsider the fundamental values ​​in life.
  But the result was a reliable and 100% recovery, which is actually a rarity in mental illnesses.

And this was a real mental illness. -
  As a child, I was quite a normal child.
  After 19 strongest chronic continuous pains caused a variety of mental deformities and aberrations. -
  The psyche tried to somehow adapt itself with the help of delirium and functional disorders.

The causes of the illness were not loneliness, disappointment or love failures. -
  - They were more like triggers.
  The main reasons were - in culture, Soviet values.
  They had to be reviewed. More precisely, create. - "Soviet" worldview was extremely thoughtless. - Everything has been decided for you, spiritual independence, "philosophy" is not approved. Thoughts are occupied only by adaptation.
  This is a negative outlook. - You know what to avoid, the aspirations are either suppressed or artificial.
  This is an inspired, imposed worldview. - Imprinting on a subconscious level, - from birth, by the whole surrounding reality.

I studied diligently. - How to "be."
  At the disco did not go, the girls did not pay attention. - Because it's "bad."
  He led a "right" life.

Accumulated "worms of doubt."
  The girl he fell in love with was a model of freedom. -
  All came together in one.
  I dramatically expanded the range of interests. -
  I discovered different halls of the library as new countries. - Before, I went to only one reading room, prescribed by study.
  Discovered the existence of the theater, the author's song, circles - philosophical, economic and much more.
  I even went to the formation-detachment, which was my girlfriend.
  Read all Dostoevsky and tons of writers. - Prior to that, I read only what was required by the school curriculum.

Unfortunately, the food was not in the horse. - Depression only acquired a disruptive form. -
  The temptations have expanded, but not satisfaction. "I was still alone." - I did not find anyone in the formation-detachment either.
  The "matter of life" with the expansion of the horizon became even more meaningless. - The goal of the chiefs was murder by an American, and the executors - a career.
  I could not get either the first girl or all the others.

Avoided passion, affection. But still I got married. - Mom suvatala. And the future "wife" herself climbed into bed. - I lived in an apartment with my grandmother when I visited her.
  "Wife" gave me a rich practice of getting rid of suffering. - I slept with everybody and at the same time. Together with his mother-in-law, cross-humiliation was arranged.

And yet I found a reliable joy in life. -
  These are the children:
  There is no longer loneliness. "They're with you forever." They depend on you.
  There are no more disappointments. - They love only you.
  Children are love for life.

2 problems only arose:
1. I could not give birth. I had to take it away. "His wife had hundreds, if not thousands of opportunities, to give birth to himself yet." True, she did not need children. But it's for the best.
  2. Incomplete family. - Weekly gave ads: "We are looking for my mother." But women do not need this.

When my daughter grew up, I tried to marry her to someone she liked, so that she would not have the same problems as me. Moreover, I could not give her a female education. - the ability to build eyes, etc.

However, I do not consider myself even a Buddhist. -
  I treated Buddhism as something utilitarian, without fully accepting its philosophical foundations.
  Although my own worldview, more accurately, mental inclinations have also radically changed. -
  I did not like violence,
  I fell in love with cats and other animals, I was indifferent to them before.
  I started to eat a little meat.
  - This is all due to non-attachment and good-naturedness.
  "Buddhism" was not just a help, but the only way out.
  On the other hand, my "Buddhism" has become simply complacency, laziness, apathy, passivity, lack of anxiety and strong aspirations.

By the way, Buddhism is often not even considered a religion. -
  It does not require belief in God, and other attributes of religion. -
  It's just a philosophical concept. Very helping to live, happily.